Sometimes I fool myself into thinking that I have super powers.
That I, Lindsay Kay, can take on the cares of the world single-handedly.
Truth be told, sometimes, I think I'm Superwoman.
Well, let me tell you that if I had a dime for every time I've realized that I'm not Superwoman, I would, at least, be a Super RICH Woman ;)
I'm pretty sure no matter how fast I run from sun-up to sun-down, I can't possibly do everything I need, want and even don't want to get done.
It's all about priorities and organization and time-management and getting enough sleep and maintaining good health and delegating, etc. Right? Ok, so...where do you find the time to do all THOSE things on top of everything else?
"A step at a time...a day at a time," James says.
I dream big. It's my blessing and my curse. Sometimes I dream up things that are way bigger than I have the means or time to make possible. Thus, my dream list is long...but, so is my stride - rooted in determination.
But no, I am not Superwoman, though, at times I'm almost positive that I'm marrying Superman himself. James truly is my hero. What I did to deserve such a great blessing, I may never know, which is fine. Why question a good thing? ;)
Ya know? Sometimes I find it unfathomable that James could think as highly of me as I do of him. In fact, last week he took me to the BYU Homecoming Spectacular (which truly was spectacular) starring BRIAN STOKES MITCHELL as an early b-day present and Brian, whom we both love, sang a song I'd never heard before, but immediately related to:
Yep, that's SO James. Truly, the potential that he sees in me makes me want to be better for him, makes me try to be the person he describes when he compliments me. She sounds pretty fantastic ;) Well, tonight James was no different. My stress levels could've carried me to Pluto on a cloud of steam or a stream of teary frustration, and oh...that boy, he is the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without him. He straightens me out when my thoughts are crooked and lifts me up when the weight of life tends to accentuate my weaknesses.
Yes, he simply amazes me.
And, yet, I must say, as amazing as my James is, there is only one for whom and by whom I know that I can be made "super", unbroken, stronger than I often feel, healed and at peace - He is our Savior, Jesus Christ. By Him, I truly "stand all amazed." I will never be made a "super woman" by my own strength and good intentions, but through the infinitely loving Atonement of our Savior...it is possible.
For now, that's all I need to know.
I don't need to fly at lightening speed or carry the world on my back, I simply need to kneel in prayer and faithfully seek guidance and strength, then stand and...take one step at a time...one day at a time.
Starting now.
Good night!
5 comments:
I so understand. I'm working two jobs at the moment (one of which is teaching--which is really two jobs on its own). And then I want to have a social life, and create things, and have a clean house. And eat food that doesn't come from a grease-marked paper bag. I so often feel that there isn't enough of me: for friends, family, students, MYSELF.
It is comforting to have the peace of the Savior's love bouy me up when I feel so weighed down.
Thanks for this post. I needed it (if only to be reminded that I'm not alone).
(And you two, though I've never met you, are adorable!)
Know that you are amazing Lindsay. And it is the everyday things that you do for those you love and care about, and those you have never even meet, that make you a real life hero. Know that you don't have to save the world on your own, know that you make a difference in the world around you, and know that you can just call if you would like some help. Have a fantastic day superwoman
Lindsay!! So I have been trying to comment on your blog since you posted your engagement story but have not been able to until now. I want you to know that I think you are a super great girl and I am sure you accomplish quite a bit even if you are not super woman. I can relate to that feeling of wanting to do everything and not quite being able to. Part of being human I guess? But yes, through the savior we can do so much more. Anyway, love the blog. James is marrying a great girl. Oh yeah, and he's great too. ;)
Lindsay! Love your blog! I have been trying to comment since you posted your engagement story but have not been able to until now. Anyway, I can relate to the feeling of wanting to do everything and not always being able to do it all. I get down too and men in our lives are great for pulling us back up and making us see what contributions we are making. Glad James does that for you. I figured he would :) But yeah, I just want you to know I think James is marrying a super great girl. Glad you are coming to the family :)
So I think I just commented on your blog twice. Cause I thought first one didn't post. :P You can choose which one you want to post.haha
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